Coincidence, I Don’t Think So…
A whole week in findings one’s self may seem a little pretentious to some, but in my case itâ€™s been the most wonderful, creative and fulfilling week I have probably ever had, not just in NYC, but in my little 29 years of living.
I cannot express how much passion for my life, my being as a person, and living I have inside me at the moment. A total shift of mindset has helped me accomplish this, with a little help from some old and new friends.
How can meeting people you have never seen before change you in such a significant way? I found myself alone, shrugged over a beer in a beautiful candle-filled bar, a bar that I have never been to before, with faces I have never seen and conversations I thought I would never have. Is this fate entwining in my life, or isÂ it just coincidence that I’m here?
Being here in New York, in a new country, a new culture and a new way of life, is a total reality check for me, in more ways than I ever could have pictured. Learning about one’s self is actually a lot harder than it seems. We all know ourselves pretty well, or do we? I have found out things about myself in these last few weeks and done things that I never imagined myself thinking let alone actually doing. Donâ€™t panic (mum) I havenâ€™t got tattoos or piecings, taken drugs or been violent in any way, shape or form. Iâ€™m talking about the reality of life; challenges and overcoming them in a positive and outgoing way, spinning that negative into something positive, and reaping the rewards as a result.
I used to find myself obsessing about everyone else. How well they are doing, how talented they are, are they better than me? I was having feelings of what am I doing here, Iâ€™m not good enough and so on and so forth. Why was I thinking this, why was I over-crowding my brain with these thoughts?Â Â I don’t know, I guess it’s only natural in my situation, but seriously, WHY?
Over that beer I mentioned earlier, I made a list of what I wanted in life. Then I made another list of what I didnâ€™t want. I compared the both lists, looked at them for a few minutes andÂ looked up and took in my new surrounding; a candle-lit bar, small, dark and cosy. Then I ripped up both lists as quickly as I could and tossed them away. I came to my senses and realized that I DONâ€™T need to be doing this to myself. I don’t need lists to tell me what I do and don’t want in life. I am not going to worry about things that I cannot control anymore. I am going to embrace all that arises, whether it be good or bad. These things are happening to me for a reason; to make me stronger as a person, perhaps, to build my confidence as a human being and an actor, or to make me realize that I cannot change the fact that these things are happening to me. I can strive for good and I can avoid the bad to the best of my ability, but the reality of the situation is facing the problem head on, staring it in the face and saying I can do this, I want to do this, I will overcome this and I will be a success in myself.
I promise you this has totally worked for me this last week. The power of attraction and the law of feelings have well and truly bowled me over, head over heels in fact!
I guess what I am trying to say is you cannot control the world, you certainly cannot control life,Â or whetherÂ othersÂ are better than you. Forget that ego voice, focus on what’s true — yourself. This is all that matters. When you focus on yourself, look after yourself andÂ clear your mindset, great experiences start to happen.
Believe in yourself, open yourself to the new and unknown, and embrace everything that comes your way, whatever it happens to be.
Smile, as you never know who will be smiling back at you!